Thursday, December 12, 2019

My Utmost for His Highest - December 12 - Personality

That they may be one, even as We are one. JOHN 17:22

Personality is that peculiar, incalculable thing that is meant when we speak of ourselves as distinct from everyone else. Our personality is always too big for us to grasp. An island in the sea may be but the top of a great mountain. Personality is like an island; we know nothing about the great depths underneath, consequently we cannot estimate ourselves. We begin by thinking that we can, but we come to realize that there is only one Being Who understands us, and that is our Creator.

Personality is the characteristic of the spiritual man as individuality is the characteristic of the natural man. Our Lord can never be defined in terms of individuality and independence, but only in terms of personality, “I and My Father are one.” Personality merges, and you only reach your real identity when you are merged with another person. When love, or the Spirit of God strikes a man, he is transformed, he no longer insists upon his separate individuality. Our Lord never spoke in terms of individuality, of a man’s “elbows” or his isolated position, but in terms of personality — “that they may be one, even as We are one.” If you give up your right to yourself to God, the real true nature of your personality answers to God straight away. Jesus Christ emancipates the personality, and the individuality is transfigured; the transfiguring element is love, personal devotion to Jesus. Love is the outpouring of one personality in fellowship with another personality. 
From My Utmost for His Highest Classic Edition

My Thoughts
  • Personality - created by God; defines the Lord
  • Not individuality, but personality
  • This is how we are to see ourselves

Wednesday, December 11, 2019

My Utmost for His Highest - December 11 - Individuality

If any man will come after Me, let him deny himself. MATTHEW 16:24
Individuality is the husk of the personal life. Individuality is all elbows, it separates and isolates. It is the characteristic of the child and rightly so; but if we mistake individuality for the personal life, we will remain isolated. The shell of individuality is God’s created natural covering for the protection of the personal life; but individuality must go in order that the personal life may come out and be brought into fellowship with God. Individuality counterfeits personality as lust counterfeits love. God designed human nature for Himself; individuality debases human nature for itself.
The characteristics of individuality are independence and self-assertiveness. It is the continual assertion of individuality that hinders our spiritual life more than anything else. If you say — “I cannot believe,” it is because individuality never can believe. Personality cannot help believing. Watch yourself when the Spirit of God is at work. He pushes you to the margins of your individuality, and you have either to say — “I shan’t,” or to surrender, to break the husk of individuality and let the personal life emerge. The Holy Spirit narrows it down every time to one thing (cf. Matthew 5:23-24). The thing in you that will not be reconciled to your brother is your individuality. God wants to bring you into union with Himself, but unless you are willing to give up your right to yourself He cannot. “Let him deny himself” — deny his independent right to himself, then the real life has a chance to grow. From My Utmost for His Highest Classic Edition
My Thoughts



Tuesday, December 10, 2019

My Utmost for His Highest - December 10 - The Offering of the Natural

Abraham had two sons, the one by a bondmaid, the other by a freewoman. GALATIANS 4:22

Paul is not dealing with sin in this chapter of Galatians, but with the relation of the natural to the spiritual. The natural must be turned into the spiritual by sacrifice, otherwise a tremendous divorce will be produced in the actual life. Why should God ordain the natural to be sacrificed? God did not. It is not God’s order, but His permissive will. God’s order was that the natural should be transformed into the spiritual by obedience; it is sin that made it necessary for the natural to be sacrificed.

Abraham had to offer up Ishmael before he offered up Isaac. Some of us are trying to offer up spiritual sacrifices to God before we have sacrificed the natural. The only way in which we can offer a spiritual sacrifice to God is by presenting our bodies a living sacrifice. Sanctification means more than deliverance from sin, it means the deliberate commitment of myself whom God has saved to God, and that I do not care what it costs.

If we do not sacrifice the natural to the spiritual, the natural life will mock at the life of the Son of God in us and produce a continual swither. This is always the result of an undisciplined spiritual nature. We go wrong because we stubbornly refuse to discipline ourselves, physically, morally or mentally. “I wasn’t disciplined when I was a child.” You must discipline yourself now. If you do not, you will ruin the whole of your personal life for God.

God is not with our natural life while we pamper it; but when we put it out in the desert and resolutely keep it under, then God will be with it; and He will open up wells and oases, and fulfill all His promises for the natural. From My Utmost for His Highest Classic Edition

My Thoughts
  • Looking again at natural life - that which we see as good - and transforming our life into doing those things are instead God's best. 
  • Sacrifice the natural - this is discipline



Monday, December 9, 2019

My Utmost for His Highest - December 9 - The Offence of the Natural

And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts. GALATIANS 5:24

The natural life is not sinful; we must be apostatized from sin, have nothing to do with sin in any shape or form. Sin belongs to hell and the devil; I, as a child of God, belong to heaven and God. It is not a question of giving up sin, but of giving up my right to myself, my natural independence and self-assertiveness, and this is where the battle has to be fought. It is the things that are right and noble and good from the natural stand point that keep us back from God’s best. To discern that natural virtues antagonize surrender to God, is to bring our soul into the centre of its greatest battle. Very few of us debate with the sordid and evil and wrong, but we do debate with the good. It is the good that hates the best, and the higher up you get in the scale of the natural virtues, the more intense is the opposition to Jesus Christ. “They that are Christ’s have crucified the flesh (Galatians 5:24)” — it is going to cost the natural in you everything, not something. Jesus said — If any man will be My disciple, “let him deny himself (Matthew 16:24)” i.e., his right to himself, and a man has to realize Who Jesus Christ is before he will do it. Beware of refusing to go to the funeral of your own independence.

The natural life is not spiritual, and it can only be made spiritual by sacrifice. If we do not resolutely sacrifice the natural, the supernatural can never become natural in us. There is no royal road there; each of us has it entirely in his own hands. It is not a question of praying, but of performing. From My Utmost for His Highest Classic Edition

My Thoughts
  • I must give up my right to myself - give up my natural independence and self-assertiveness - THIS is where they battle is fought.
  • I must move from good to best. Things are right, noble,, good - naturally. God's ways are best. 
  • Our main opposition in life is not with doing sordid, evil, or wrong practices - but instead we debate with doing what is simply good. But, good hates the best. 
  • The flesh is natural man and natural man has good ambitions - this is his independence. 
    • It is interesting, but growing up we talk of being independent as being something good that we aspire to in life. Yet, independence is in opposition to God. 

Thursday, December 5, 2019

My Utmost for His Highest - December 5 - The Temple Of The Holy Ghost

Only in the throne will I be greater than thou. GENESIS 41:40 (Pharoah to Joseph)

I have to account to God for the way in which I rule my body under His domination. Paul said he did not “frustrate the grace of God” — make it of no effect. The grace of God is absolute, the salvation of Jesus is perfect, it is done for ever. I am not being saved, I am saved; salvation is as eternal as God’s throne; the thing for me to do is to work out what God works in. “Work out your own salvation (Philippians 2:12)”; I am responsible for doing it. It means that I have to manifest in this body the life of the Lord Jesus, not mystically, but really and emphatically. “I keep under my body, and bring it into subjection (I Corinthians 9:27).” Every saint can have his body under absolute control for God. God has made us to have government over all the temple of the Holy Spirit, over imaginations and affections. We are responsible for these, and we must never give way to inordinate affections. Most of us are much sterner with others than we are in regard to ourselves; we make excuses for things in ourselves whilst we condemn in others things to which we are not naturally inclined.

“I beseech you,” says Paul, “present your bodies a living sacrifice (Romans 12:1).” The point to decide is this — “Do I agree with my Lord and Master that my body shall be His temple?” If so, then for me the whole of the law for the body is summed up in this revelation, that my body is the temple of the Holy Ghost. From My Utmost for His Highest Classic Edition
- Underlines and highlights are courtesy of Mom from her Print Edition
My Mom's Notes
  • Mother's (Ruth Benge Wiley) actual Birthday - 1918





Wednesday, December 4, 2019

My Utmost for His Highest - December 4 - The Law of Antagonism

To him that overcomethREVELATION 2:7

Life without war is impossible either in nature or in grace. The basis of physical, mental, moral, and spiritual life is antagonism. This is the open fact of life.

Health is the balance between physical life and external nature, and it is maintained only by sufficient vitality on the inside against things on the outside. Everything outside my physical life is designed to put me to death. Things which keep me going when I am alive, disintegrate me when I am dead. If I have enough fighting power, I produce the balance of health. The same is true of the mental life. If I want to maintain a vigorous mental life, I have to fight, and in that way the mental balance called thought is produced.

Morally it is the same. Everything that does not partake of the nature of virtue is the enemy of virtue in me, and it depends on what moral caliber I have whether I overcome and produce virtue. Immediately I fight, I am moral in that particular. No man is virtuous because he cannot help it; virtue is acquired.

And spiritually it is the same. Jesus said — “In the world ye shall have tribulation,” i.e., everything that is not spiritual makes for my undoing, but — “be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.” I have to learn to score off the things that come against me, and in that way produce the balance of holiness; then it becomes a delight to meet opposition.

Holiness is the balance between my disposition and the law of God as expressed in Jesus Christ. From My Utmost for His Highest Classic Edition
My mother provided the underlines and highlights from her print edition
My Thoughts
  • Antagonism - active hostility or opposition



Tuesday, December 3, 2019

My Utmost for His Highest - December 3 - Not By Might Nor By Power

And my speech and my preaching was not with enticing words of man's wisdom, but in demonstration of the Spirit and of power. 1 CORINTHIANS 2:4

If in preaching the Gospel you substitute your clear knowledge of the way of salvation for confidence in the power of the Gospel, you hinder people getting to Reality. You have to see that while you proclaim your knowledge of the way of salvation, you yourself are rooted and grounded in faith in God. Never rely on the clearness of your exposition, but as you give your exposition see that you are relying on the Holy Spirit. Rely on the certainty of God’s redemptive power, and He will create His own life in souls.

When once you are rooted in Reality, nothing can shake you. If your faith is in experiences, any thing that happens is likely to upset that faith; but nothing can ever upset God or the almighty Reality of Redemption; base your faith on that, and you are as eternally secure as God. When once you get into personal contact with Jesus Christ, you will never be moved again. That is the meaning of sanctification. God puts His disapproval on human experience when we begin to adhere to the conception that sanctification is merely an experience, and forget that sanctification itself has to be sanctified (see John 17:19). I have deliberately to give my sanctified life to God for His service, so that He can use me as His hands and His feet. From My Utmost for His Highest Classic Edition
The underlines and highlights were done by my mom in her print edition.

My Thoughts
  • In preaching and sharing the Word with people I need to be sensitive to the Lord's leading. 

Monday, December 2, 2019

My Utmost for His Highest - December 2 - Christian Persecution

Not as though I had already attained, either were already perfect… PHILIPPIANS 3:12

It is a snare to imagine that God wants to make us perfect specimens of what He can do; God’s purpose is to make us one with Himself. The emphasis of holiness movements is apt to be that God is producing specimens of holiness to put in His museum. If you go off on this idea of personal holiness, the dead-set of your life will not be for God, but for what you call the manifestation of God in your life. “It can never be God’s will that I should be sick,” you say. If it was God’s will to bruise His own Son, why should He not bruise you? The thing that tells for God is not your relevant consistency to an idea of what a saint should be, but your real vital relation to Jesus Christ, and your abandonment to Him whether you are well or ill.

Christian perfection is not, and never can be, human perfection. Christian perfection is the perfection of a relationship to God which shows itself amid the irrelevancies of human life. When you obey the call of Jesus Christ, the first thing that strikes you is the irrelevancy of the things you have to do, and the next thing that strikes you is the fact that other people seem to be living perfectly consistent lives. Such lives are apt to leave you with the idea that God is unnecessary, by human effort and devotion we can reach the standard God wants. In a fallen world this can never be done. I am called to live in perfect relation to God so that my life produces a longing after God in other lives, not admiration for myself. Thoughts about myself hinder my usefulness to God. God is not after perfecting me to be a specimen in His show-room; He is getting me to the place where He can use me. Let Him do what He likes. From My Utmost for His Highest Classic Edition
My mom provided the highlights and underlines

My Thoughts
  • My ambition is to be One with God, not to be perfect
  • We get too caught up in our circumstances and this includes being sick. If it was God's will to bruise His own Son, why should He not bruise me? 

Sunday, December 1, 2019

My Utmost for His Highest - December 1 - The Law and the Gospel

For whosoever shall keep the whole law, and yet offend in one point, he is guilty of all. JAMES 2:10

The moral law does not consider us as weak human beings at all, it takes no account of our heredity and infirmities, it demands that we be absolutely moral. The moral law never alters, either for the noblest or for the weakest, it is eternally and abidingly the same. The moral law ordained by God does not make itself weak to the weak, it does not palliate our shortcomings, it remains absolute for all time and eternity. If we do not realize this, it is because we are less than alive; immediately we are alive, life becomes a tragedy. “I was alive without the law once: but when the commandment came, sin revived, and I died.” When we realize this, then the Spirit of God convicts us of sin. Until a man gets there and sees that there is no hope, the Cross of Jesus Christ is a farce to him. Conviction of sin always brings a fearful binding sense of the law, it makes a man hopeless — “sold under sin.” I, a guilty sinner, can never get right with God, it is impossible. There is only one way in which I can get right with God, and that is by the Death of Jesus Christ. I must get rid of the lurking idea that I can ever be right with God because of my obedience — which of us could ever obey God to absolute perfection!

We only realize the power of the moral law when it comes with an “if.” God never coerces us. In one mood we wish He would make us do the thing, and in another mood we wish He would leave us alone. Whenever God’s will is in the ascendant, all compulsion is gone. When we choose deliberately to obey Him, then He will tax the remotest star and the last grain of sand to assist us

From My Utmost for His Highest Classic Edition
Highlights and underlines by my mom. 

My Thoughts
  • There are no excuses related to the moral law. 
  • What makes me 'not right' with God is my sin and the only answer is the Death of Jesus Christ, the cross. It is never the result of obedience. 





Tuesday, November 26, 2019

My Utmost for His Highest - November 26 - The Concentration of Spiritual Energy

…save in the cross of our Lord Jesus Christ.Galatians 6:14

If you want to know the energy of God (i.e., the resurrection life of Jesus) in your mortal flesh, you must brood on the tragedy of God. Cut yourself off from prying personal interest in your own spiritual symptoms and consider bare-spirited the tragedy of God, and instantly the energy of God will be in you. “Look unto Me,” pay attention to the objective Source and the subjective energy will be there. We lose power if we do not concentrate on the right thing. The effect of the Cross is salvation, sanctification, healing, etc., but we are not to preach any of these, we are to preach Jesus Christ and Him crucified. The proclaiming of Jesus will do its own work.

Concentrate on God’s center in your preaching, and though your crowd may apparently pay no attention, they can never be the same again. If I talk my own talk, it is of no more importance to you than your talk is to me; but if I talk the truth of God, you will meet it again and so shall I. We have to concentrate on the great point of spiritual energy, the Cross, to keep in contact with that center where all the power lies, and the energy will be let loose. In holiness movements and spiritual experience meetings the concentration is apt to be put not on the Cross of Christ, but on the effects of the Cross.

The feebleness of the churches is being criticized to-day, and the criticism is justified. One reason for the feebleness is that there has not been this concentration of spiritual energy; we have not brooded enough on the tragedy of Calvary or on the meaning of Redemption.


My Thoughts
  • brood - think deeply about something that makes one unhappy

Monday, November 25, 2019

My Utmost for His Highest - November 25 - The Secret of Spiritual Coherence

But God forbid that I should glory…Galatians 6:14

When a man is first born again, he becomes incoherent, there is an amount of unrelated emotion about him, unrelated phases of external things. In the apostle Paul there was a strong steady coherence underneath, consequently he could let his external life change as it liked and it did not distress him, because he was rooted and grounded in God. Most of us are not spiritually coherent because we are more concerned about being coherent externally. Paul lived in the basement; the coherent critics live in the upper story of the external statement of things, and the two do not begin to touch each other. Paul’s consistency was down in the fundamentals. The great basis of his coherence was the agony of God in the Redemption of the world, viz., the Cross of Jesus Christ.

Re-state to yourself what you believe, then do away with as much of it as possible, and get back to the bedrock of the Cross of Christ. In external history the Cross is an infinitesimal thing; from the Bible point of view it is of more importance than all the empires of the world. If we get away from brooding on the tragedy of God upon the Cross in our preaching, it produces nothing. It does not convey the energy of God to man; it may be interesting but it has no power. But preach the Cross, and the energy of God is let loose. “It pleased God by the foolishness of preaching to save them that believe….We preach Christ crucified.”

My thoughts:
  • Incoherent - (of a person) unable to speak intelligibly 
  • External - seems to mean outside of our life with God - our natural life
    • do I let my external life change because of being grounded in God
  • Infinitesimal - extremely small

Sunday, November 24, 2019

My Utmost for His Highest - November 24 - Direction of Aspiration

Behold, as the eyes of servants look unto the hand of their masters…so our eyes wait upon the Lord our God. — Psalm 123:2

This verse is a description of entire reliance upon God. Just as the eyes of the servant are riveted on his master, so our eyes are up unto God and our knowledge of His countenance is gained (cf. Isaiah 53:1 RV). Spiritual leakage begins when we cease to lift up our eyes unto Him. The leakage comes not so much through trouble on the outside as in the imagination, when we begin to say – “I expect I have been stretching myself a bit too much, standing on tiptoe and trying to look like God in stead of being an ordinary humble person.” We have to realize that no effort can be too high.

For instance, you came to a crisis when you made a stand for God and had the witness of the Spirit that all was right, but the weeks have gone by, and the years maybe, and you are slowly coming to the conclusion, “Well, after all, was I not a bit too pretentious? Was I not taking a stand a bit too high?” Your rational friends come and say – “Don’t be a fool, we knew when you talked about this spiritual awakening that it was a passing impulse, you can’t keep up the strain, God does not expect you to.” And you say – “Well, I suppose I was expecting too much.” It sounds humble to say it, but it means that reliance on God has gone and reliance on worldly opinion has come in. The danger is lest, no longer relying on God, you ignore the lifting up of your eyes to Him. Only when God brings you to a sudden halt, will you realize how you have been losing out. Whenever there is a leakage, remedy it immediately. Recognize that something has been coming between you and God, and get it readjusted at once.

Friday, November 22, 2019

My Utmost for His Highest - November 22 - Shallow and Profound

Whether therefore ye eat, or drink, or whatsoever ye do, do all to the glory of God.1 Corinthians 10:31

Beware of allowing yourself to think that the shallow concerns of life are not ordained of God; they are as much of God as the profound. It is not your devotion to God that makes you refuse to be shallow, but your wish to impress other people with the fact that you are not shallow, which is a sure sign that you are a spiritual prig. Be careful of the production of contempt in yourself, it always comes along this line, and causes you to go about as a walking rebuke to other people because they are more shallow than you are. Beware of posing as a profound person; God became a Baby.

To be shallow is not a sign of being wicked, nor is shallowness a sign that there are no deeps; the ocean has a shore. The shallow amenities of life, eating and drinking, walking and talking, are all ordained by God. These are the things in which Our Lord lived. He lived in them as the Son of God, and He said that “the disciple is not above his Master.”

Our safeguard is in the shallow things. We have to live the surface commonsense life in a commonsense way; when the deeper things come, God gives them to us apart from the shallow concerns. Never show the deeps to anyone but God. We are so abominably serious, so desperately interested in our own characters, that we refuse to behave like Christians in the shallow concerns of life.

Determinedly take no one seriously but God, and the first person you find you have to leave severely alone as being the greatest fraud you have ever known, is yourself.

My Thoughts
  • I've always thought it is not always the big things that define us but the small things, the perhaps shallow things that we do day in and day out. 

Thursday, November 21, 2019

My Utmost for His Highest - November 21 - It is Finished

I have finished the work which Thou gavest Me to do. — John 17:4

The death of Jesus Christ is the performance in history of the very mind of God. There is no room for looking on Jesus Christ as a martyr; His death was not something that happened to Him which might have been prevented. His death was the very reason why He came.

Never build your preaching of forgiveness on the fact that God is our Father and He will forgive us because He loves us. It is untrue to Jesus Christ’s revelation of God; it makes the Cross unnecessary, and the Redemption “much ado about nothing.” If God does forgive sin, it is because of the Death of Christ. God could forgive men in no other way than by the death of His Son, and Jesus is exalted to be Saviour because of His death. “We see Jesus…because of the suffering of death, crowned with glory and honour.” The greatest note of triumph that ever sounded in the ears of a startled universe was that sounded on the Cross of Christ – “It is finished.” That is the last word in the Redemption of man.

Anything that belittles or obliterates the holiness of God by a false view of the love of God, is untrue to the revelation of God given by Jesus Christ. Never allow the thought that Jesus Christ stands with us against God out of pity and compassion; that He became a curse for us out of sympathy with us. Jesus Christ became a curse for us by the Divine decree. Our portion of realizing the terrific meaning of the curse is conviction of sin, the gift of shame and penitence is given us; this is the great mercy of God. Jesus Christ hates the wrong in man, and Calvary is the estimate of His hatred.

My Thoughts
  • Forgiveness came about from hatred - Jesus hatred of the wrong man commits. 
  • God does not save man out of sympathy for him. 
  • His death is the reason He came

Wednesday, November 20, 2019

My Utmost for His Highest - November 19 - When He Is Come

And when He is come, He will convict the world of sin…John 16:8 (R.V.)

Very few of us know anything about conviction of sin; we know the experience of being disturbed because of having done wrong things; but conviction of sin by the Holy Ghost blots out every relationship on earth and leaves one relationship only – “Against Thee, Thee only, have I sinned.” When a man is convicted of sin in this way, he knows with every power of his conscience that God dare not forgive him; if God did forgive him, the man would have a stronger sense of justice than God. God does forgive, but it cost the rending of His heart in the death of Christ to enable Him to do so. The great miracle of the grace of God is that He forgives sin, and it is the death of Jesus Christ alone that enables the Divine nature to forgive and to remain true to itself in doing so. It is shallow nonsense to say that God forgives us because He is love. When we have been convicted of sin we will never say this again. The love of God means Calvary, and nothing less; the love of God is spelt on the Cross and nowhere else. The only ground on which God can forgive me is through the Cross of my Lord. There, His conscience is satisfied.

Forgiveness means not merely that I am saved from hell and made right for heaven (no man would accept forgiveness on such a level); forgiveness means that I am forgiven into a recreated relationship, into identification with God in Christ. The miracle of Redemption is that God turns me, the unholy one, into the standard of Himself, the Holy One, by putting into me a new disposition, the disposition of Jesus Christ.

Monday, November 18, 2019

My Utmost for His Highest - November 18 - Winning into Freedom

If the Son therefore shall make you free, ye shall be free indeed. — John 8:36

If there is any remnant of individual conceit left, it always says – “I can’t.” Personality never says – “I can’t,” but simply absorbs and absorbs. Personality always wants more and more. It is the way we are built. We are designed with a great capacity for God; and sin and our individuality are the things that keep us from getting at God. God delivers us from sin: we have to deliver our selves from individuality, i.e., to present our natural life to God and sacrifice it until it is transformed into a spiritual life by obedience.
God does not pay any attention to our natural individuality in the development of our spiritual life. His order runs right across the natural life, and we have to see that we aid and abet God, not stand against Him and say – “I can’t do that.” God will not discipline us, we must discipline ourselves. God will not bring every thought and imagination into captivity; we have to do it. Do not say – “O Lord, I suffer from wandering thoughts.” Don’t suffer from wandering thoughts. Stop listening to the tyranny of your individuality, and get emancipated out into personality.
“If the Son…shall make you free…” Do not substitute “Saviour” for “Son.” The Saviour sets us free from sin; this is the freedom of being set free by the Son. It is what Paul means in Gal. 2:20 – “I have been crucified with Christ,” his natural individuality has been broken and his personality united with his Lord, not merged but united; “ye shall be free indeed,” free in essence, free from the inside. We will insist on energy, instead of being energized into identification with Jesus.

Mom's Notes
  • 2017 Noah and Ella Wedding
My Thoughts
  • conceit - excessive pride in oneself
  • God designs us to great things for God - our problem is ourselves
  • Do not say, "God I am suffering from wandering thoughts, help me." No instead stop listening to your individuality

Sunday, November 17, 2019

My Utmost for His Highest - November 17 - The Eternal Goal

By Myself have I sworn, saith the Lord, for because thou hast done this thing,…that in blessing I will bless thee.…Genesis 22:15-19

Abraham has reached the place where he is in touch with the very nature of God, he understands now the Reality of God.
My goal is God Himself
At any cost, dear Lord, by any road.”
“At any cost, by any road” means nothing self-chosen in the way God brings us to the goal.

There is no possibility of questioning when God speaks if He speaks to His own nature in me; prompt obedience is the only result. When Jesus says — “Come,” I simply come; when He says — “Let go,” I let go; when He says — “Trust in God in this matter,” I do trust. The whole working out is the evidence that the nature of God is in me.

God’s revelation of Himself to me is determined by my character, not by God’s character.
“Tis because I am mean,
Thy ways so oft look mean to me.”
By the discipline of obedience I get to the place where Abraham was and I see Who God is. I never have a real God until I have come face to face with Him in Jesus Christ, then I know that “in all the world, my God, there is none but Thee, there is none but Thee.”

The promises of God are of no value to us until by obedience we understand the nature of God. We read some things in the Bible three hundred and sixty-five times and they mean nothing to us; then all of a sudden we see what God means, because in some particular we have obeyed God, and instantly His nature is opened up. “All the promises of God in Him are yea, and in Him Amen. (2 Corinthians 1:20)” The “yea” must be born of obedience; when by the obedience of our lives we say “Amen” to a promise, then that promise is ours.

Saturday, November 16, 2019

My Utmost for His Highest - November 16 - Still Human!

Whatsoever ye do, do all to the glory of God.1 Corinthians 10:31

The great marvel of the Incarnation slips into ordinary childhood’s life; the great marvel of the Transfiguration vanishes in the devil-possessed valley; the glory of the Resurrection descends into a breakfast on the sea-shore. This is not an anticlimax, but a great revelation of God.

The tendency is to look for the marvelous in our experience; we mistake the sense of the heroic for being heroes. It is one thing to go through a crisis grandly, but another thing to go through every day glorifying God when there is no witness, no limelight, no one paying the remotest attention to us. If we do not want medieval halos, we want something that will make people say — “What a wonderful man of prayer he is!” “What a pious devoted woman she is!” If you are rightly devoted to the Lord Jesus, you have reached the sublime height where no one ever thinks of noticing you, all that is noticed is that the power of God comes through you all the time.

“Oh, I have had a wonderful call from God!” It takes Almighty God Incarnate in us to do the meanest* duty to the glory of God. It takes God’s Spirit in us to make us so absolutely humanly His that we are utterly unnoticeable. The test of the life of a saint is not success, but faithfulness in human life as it actually is. We will set up success in Christian work as the aim; the aim is to manifest the glory of God in human life, to live the life hid with Christ in God in human conditions. Our human relationships are the actual conditions in which the ideal life of God is to be exhibited.

*mean: as used here, something or someone ordinary, common, low, or ignoble, rather than cruel or spiteful.

Mom's Notes
  • Squig's Birthday
My Notes
  • This reading makes me think of my mom who wasn't in the limelight and yet followed God daily in the little ways. 

Friday, November 15, 2019

My Utmost for His Highest - November 15 - What Is That to Thee?

Lord, what shall this man do?…What is that to thee? Follow thou Me.John 21:21,22

One of our severest lessons comes from the stubborn refusal to see that we must not interfere in other people’s lives. It takes a long time to realize the danger of being an amateur providence, that is, interfering with God’s order for others. You see a certain person suffering, and you say — “He shall not suffer, and I will see that he does not.” You put your hand straight in front of God’s permissive will to prevent it, and God says — “What is that to thee?” If there is stagnation spiritually, never allow it to go on, but get into God’s presence and find out the reason for it. Possibly you will find it is because you have been interfering in the life of another; proposing things you had no right to propose; advising when you had no right to advise. When you do have to give advice to another, God will advise through you with the direct understanding of His Spirit; your part is to be so rightly related to God that His discernment comes through you all the time for the blessing of another soul.
Most of us live on the borders of consciousness — consciously serving, consciously devoted to God. All this is immature, it is not the real life yet. The mature stage is the life of a child which is never conscious; we become so abandoned to God that the consciousness of being used never enters in. When we are consciously being used as broken bread and poured-out wine, there is another stage to be reached, where all consciousness of ourselves and of what God is doing through us is eliminated. A saint is never consciously a saint; a saint is consciously dependent on God.

Thursday, November 14, 2019

My Utmost for His Highest - November 14 - Discovering Divine Designs

I being in the way, the Lord led me.…Genesis 24:27

We have to be so one with God that we do not continually need to ask for guidance. Sanctification means that we are made the children of God, and the natural life of a child is obedience — until he wishes to be disobedient, then instantly there is the intuitive jar. In the spiritual domain the intuitive jar is the monition of the Spirit of God. When He gives the check, we have to stop at once and be renewed in the spirit of our mind in order to make out what God’s will is. If we are born again of the Spirit of God, it is the abortion of piety to ask God to guide us here and there. “The Lord led me,” and on looking back we see the presence of an amazing design, which, if we are born of God, we will credit to God.

We can all see God in exceptional things, but it requires the culture of spiritual discipline to see God in every detail. Never allow that the haphazard is anything less than God’s appointed order, and be ready to discover the Divine designs any where.

Beware of making a fetish of consistency to your convictions instead of being devoted to God. “I shall never do that” — in all probability you will have to, if you are a saint. There never was a more inconsistent Being on this earth than Our Lord, but He was never inconsistent to His Father. The one consistency of the saint is not to a principle, but to the Divine life. It is the Divine life which continually makes more and more discoveries about the Divine mind. It is easier to be a fanatic than a faithful soul, because there is something amazingly humbling, particularly to our religious conceit, in being loyal to God.

My Thoughts
  • The mark of a mature Christian is not having to ask God to be led as obedience is natural as I become a true child of God. Children obey. 
  • I need to see God's divine design in all the details of life, not only the grand ones. 

Wednesday, November 13, 2019

My Utmost for His Highest - November 13 - Faith and Experience

The Son of God, who loved me, and gave Himself for me.Galatians 2:20

We have to battle through our moods into absolute devotion to the Lord Jesus, to get out of the hole-and-corner business of our experience into abandoned devotion to Him. Think Who the New Testament says that Jesus Christ is, and then think of the despicable meanness* of the miserable faith we have — “I haven’t had this and that experience!” Think what faith in Jesus Christ claims — that He can present us faultless before the throne of God, unutterably pure, absolutely rectified and profoundly justified. Stand in implicit adoring faith in Him, He is “made unto us wisdom, and righteousness, and sanctification, and redemption (I Corinthians 1:30).” How can we talk of making a sacrifice for the Son of God! Our salvation is from hell and perdition, and then we talk about making sacrifices!

We have to get out into faith in Jesus Christ continually; not a prayer meeting Jesus Christ, nor a book Jesus Christ, but the New Testament Jesus Christ, Who is God Incarnate, and Who ought to strike us to His feet as dead. Our faith must be in the One from Whom our experience springs. Jesus Christ wants our absolute abandon of devotion to Himself. We never can experience Jesus Christ, nor ever hold Him within the compass of our own hearts, but our faith must be built in strong emphatic confidence in Him.

It is along this line that we see the rugged impatience of the Holy Ghost against unbelief. All our fears are wicked, and we fear because we will not nourish ourselves in our faith. How can any one who is identified with Jesus Christ suffer from doubt or fear! It ought to be an absolute psalm of perfectly irrepressible, triumphant belief.


*mean: as used here, something or someone ordinary, common, low, or ignoble, rather than cruel or spiteful.

My Thoughts
  • It is true that I am a victim of my mood all too often, and what I am feeling at any given time, rather than focusing on my devotion and the commitment I have made to the Lord. 
  • I often think I am doing something great if I make a sacrifice in my devotion with God, but the reality is that I have been saved from hell and eternal separation from God - and I have the gall to say that I am making sacrifices. 
  • My faith should never be based upon experience, but instead complete confidence in Him. 
  • My identity with Jesus Christ should make me never doubt or fear.  

Wednesday, November 6, 2019

My Utmost for His Highest - November 6 - Programme of Belief

Believest thou this?John 11:26

Martha believed in the power at the disposal of Jesus Christ; she believed that if He had been present He could have healed her brother. She also believed that Jesus had a peculiar intimacy with God and that whatever He asked of God, God would do; but she needed a closer personal intimacy with Jesus. Martha’s programme of belief had its fulfillment in the future; Jesus led her on until her belief became a personal possession, and then slowly emerged into a particular inheritance — “Yea, Lord, I believe that Thou art the Christ….”

Is there something like that in the Lord’s dealings with you? Is Jesus educating you into a personal intimacy with Himself? Let Him press home His question to you — “Believest thou this?” What is your ordeal of doubt? Have you come, like Martha, to some overwhelming passage in your circumstances where your programme of belief is about to emerge into a personal belief? This can never be until a personal need arises out of a personal problem.

To believe is to commit. In the programme of mental belief I commit myself, and abandon all that is not related to that commitment. In personal belief I commit myself morally to this way of confidence and refuse to compromise with any other; and in particular belief I commit myself spiritually to Jesus Christ, and determine in that thing to be dominated by the Lord alone.

When I stand face to face with Jesus Christ and He says to me — “Believest thou this?” I find that faith is as natural as breathing, and I am staggered that I was so stupid as not to trust Him before.

My Thoughts
  • Have I moved into an intimacy with Jesus
  • Mental belief - personal belief - particular belief - eventually believing I am dominated by the Lord alone

Tuesday, November 5, 2019

My Utmost for His Highest - November 5 - Partakers of His Sufferings

Rejoice, inasmuch as ye are partakers of Christ's sufferings.1 Peter 4:13

If you are going to be used by God, He will take you through a multitude of experiences that are not meant for you at all; they are meant to make you useful in His hands, and to enable you to understand what transpires in other souls so that you will never be surprised at what you come across. “Oh, I can’t deal with that person.” Why not? God gave you ample opportunity to soak before Him on that line, and you “barged off” because it seemed stupid to spend time in that way.

The sufferings of Christ are not those of ordinary men. He suffered “according to the will of God,” not from the point of view we suffer from as individuals. It is only when we are related to Jesus Christ that we can understand what God is after in His dealings with us. It is part of Christian culture to know what God’s aim is. In the history of the Christian Church the tendency has been to evade being identified with the sufferings of Jesus Christ; men have sought to procure the carrying out of God’s order by a short cut of their own. God’s way is always the way of suffering, the way of the “long, long trail.”

Are we partakers of Christ’s sufferings? Are we prepared for God to stamp our personal ambitions right out? Are we prepared for God to destroy by transfiguration our individual determinations? It will not mean that we know exactly why God is taking us that way; that would make us spiritual prigs. We never realize at the time what God is putting us through; we go through it more or less misunderstandingly; then we come to a luminous place, and say — “Why, God has girded me, though I did not know it!”

My Thoughts
  • God's way is always the way of suffering. I should not be aghast at suffering, but not simply physical suffering - as in a medical condition - but obedience to Christ suffering. Isn't this why I am not often obedient? Because I don't want to suffer. Because I am scared of looking foolish or speaking in a manner that is seen as odd. 
  • My Personal ambitions are often what is keeping me from obedience to God; I have let myself be defined by the world and its way and in this process my obedience to God is only on what is convenient for me, what is safe. I play it safe.  

Monday, November 4, 2019

My Utmost for His Highest - November 4 - The Authority of Reality

Draw nigh to God, and He will draw nigh to you.James 4:8

It is essential to give people a chance of acting on the truth of God. The responsibility must be left with the individual, you cannot act for him, it must be his own deliberate act, but the evangelical message ought always to lead a man to act. The paralysis of refusing to act leaves a man exactly where he was before; when once he acts, he is never the same. It is the foolishness of it that stands in the way of hundreds who have been convicted by the Spirit of God. Immediately I precipitate myself over into an act, that second I live; all the rest is existence. The moments when I truly live are the moments when I act with my whole will.

Never allow a truth of God that is brought home to your soul to pass without acting on it, not necessarily physically, but in will. Record it, with ink or with blood. The feeblest saint who transacts business with Jesus Christ is emancipated the second he acts; all the almighty power of God is on his behalf. We come up to the truth of God, we confess we are wrong, but go back again; then we come up to it again, and go back; until we learn that we have no business to go back. We have to go clean over on some word of our redeeming Lord and transact business with Him. His word “come” means “transact.” “Come unto Me.” The last thing we do is to come; but everyone who does come knows that that second the supernatural rush of the life of God invades him instantly. The dominating power of the world, the flesh and the devil is paralyzed, not by your act, but because your act has linked you on to God and His redemptive power.

My Thoughts
  • It is foolish to not listen to the Spirit of God speaking to us to act 
  • There is a paralysis in refusing to act
  • Acting moves me into moments of truly living
  • In acting I am linked on to God and His redemptive power
My mom passed away on October 6 and reading these devotionals from her worn out book allows me to spend time with her again each day, seeing what she underlined and being linked to her time with God. 

My Utmost for His Highest - November 3 - A Bond-Slave of Jesus

I am crucified with Christ; nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me. —Galatians 2:20

These words mean the breaking of my independence with my own hand and surrendering to the supremacy of the Lord Jesus. No one can do this for me, I must do it myself. God may bring me up to the point three hundred and sixty-five times a year, but He cannot put me through it. It means breaking the husk of my individual independence of God, and the emancipating of my personality into oneness with Himself, not for my own ideas, but for absolute loyalty to Jesus. There is no possibility of dispute when once I am there. Very few of us know anything about loyalty to Christ – “For My sake.” It is that which makes the iron saint.

Has that break come? All the rest is pious fraud. The one point to decide is – Will I give up, will I surrender to Jesus Christ, and make no conditions whatever as to how the break comes? I must be broken from my self-realization, and immediately that point is reached, the reality of the supernatural identification takes place at once, and the witness of the Spirit of God is unmistakable – “I have been crucified with Christ.”

The passion of Christianity is that I deliberately sign away my own rights and become a bond-slave of Jesus Christ. Until I do that, I do not begin to be a saint.

One student a year who hears God’s call would be sufficient for God to have called this College into existence. This College as an organization is not worth anything, it is not academic; it is for nothing else but for God to help Himself to lives. Is He going to help Himself to us, or are we taken up with our conception of what we are going to be?

Saturday, November 2, 2019

My Utmost for His Highest - November 2 - Authority and Independence

If ye love Me, ye will keep My commandments. —John 14:15 (R.V.)
Our Lord never insists upon obedience; He tells us very emphatically what we ought to do, but He never takes means to make us do it. We have to obey Him out of a oneness of spirit. That is why whenever Our Lord talked about discipleship, He prefaced it with an IF – you do not need to unless you like. “If any man will be My disciple, let him deny himself,” let him give up his right to himself to Me. Our Lord is not talking of eternal positions, but of being of value to Himself in this order of things, that is why He sounds so stern (cf. Luke 14:26). Never interpret these words apart from the One Who uttered them.

The Lord does not give me rules, He makes His standard very clear, and if my relationship to Him is that of love, I will do what He says without any hesitation. If I hesitate, it is because I love some one else in competition with Him, viz., myself. Jesus Christ will not help me to obey Him, I must obey Him; and when I do obey Him, I fulfil my spiritual destiny. My personal life may be crowded with small petty incidents, altogether unnoticeable and mean; but if I obey Jesus Christ in the haphazard circumstances, they become pinholes through which I see the face of God, and when I stand face to face with God I will discover that through my obedience thousands were blessed. When once God’s Redemption comes to the point of obedience in a human soul, it always creates. If I obey Jesus Christ, the Redemption of God will rush through me to other lives, because behind the deed of obedience is the Reality of Almighty God.

Mom's Thoughts
  • Chris and Pamela's Wedding 1997

Friday, November 1, 2019

My Utmost for His Highest - November 1 - Ye Are Not Your Own

Know ye not that . . ye are not your own?1 Corinthians 6:19
There is no such thing as a private life – “a world within the world” – for a man or woman who is brought into fellowship with Jesus Christ’s sufferings. God breaks up the private life of His saints, and makes it a thoroughfare for the world on the one hand and for Himself on the other. No human being can stand that unless he is identified with Jesus Christ. We are not sanctified for ourselves, we are called into the fellowship of the Gospel, and things happen which have nothing to do with us, God is getting us into fellowship with Himself. Let Him have His way, if you do not, instead of being of the slightest use to God in His Redemptive work in the world, you will be a hindrance and a clog.

The first thing God does with us is to get us based on rugged Reality until we do not care what becomes of us individually as long as He gets His way for the purpose of His Redemption. Why shouldn’t we go through heartbreaks? Through those doorways God is opening up ways of fellowship with His Son. Most of us fall and collapse at the first grip of pain; we sit down on the threshold of God’s purpose and die away of self-pity, and all so called Christian sympathy will aid us to our death bed. But God will not. He comes with the grip of the pierced hand of His Son, and says – “Enter into fellowship with Me; arise and shine.” If through a broken heart God can bring His purposes to pass in the world, then thank Him for breaking your heart.

Wednesday, October 30, 2019

Romans 3:10-11 - A Divided Will

Romans 3:10-11
10 as it is written,
“There is none righteous, not even one;
11 There is none who understands,
There is none who seeks for God;


Message: A Divided Will; Does man cooperate with God at the point of salvation or is man passive?

Time: Paul wrote Romans from Corinth as he prepared to leave for Palestine. Phoebe (16:1,2) was given the great responsibility of delivering the letter to the Romans believers. At this time, Rome had a population of 1 million, many of whom were slaves. The Roman church was doctrinally sound, but it still needed rich doctrine and practical application. Rome had massive buildings but also slums.

What the Lord is Saying:

While Pelagianism and semi-Pelagianism were condemned at the Second Council of Orange in AD 529, there are remnants of it that still seem to be held today. Catholicism condemns it and yet in practice, they seem to lapse back into semi-Pelagianism. RC Sproul in his message "Is Grace Irresistible" mentions that there is an always present conflict in the church between semi-Pelagianism and Augustinian as it relates to the issue of man's involvement in salvation. He mentions that Arminius held to something similar to semi-Pelagianism. (I get the idea that he thinks that a person can be saved believing in semi-Pelagianism as well as Augustinian's view because both believe in grace.)

Again, semi-Pelagianism upholds the doctrine of grace but believes that man takes the first step toward God. Pelagius argues that if God commanded people to do something, then he felt that man must have the ability to do it, for why would God make a command if man was unable to heed it. The conclusion of Pelagius is that grace is not needed for man has the ability on his own for goodness. [I have read a few commentaries on Pelagius and it seems that what he wrote about grace contradicted himself - at times he said grace was necessary, at times unnecessary; what seems to be clear is he was concerned that grace made man sort of irresponsible and therefore could gave license to sin; Christians were therefore lax in their service because the view they had about sin.]

I find these beliefs interesting because we have so many seemingly different beliefs today and yet as I study this material I see we actually have a few beliefs with some small variations (recently, I have begun to identify that the variations are often a difference in opinion as to what constitutes essential and non-essential doctrines). It is interesting to see the origin of theology and how concepts have been concluded by some and not concluded by others. Who we are today in our thinking is really a product of thinking from hundreds of years ago.

It seems that the crux of what most people want from God or their beliefs is something that makes sense or sounds reasonable to them. They seem to want something all inclusive. In a way, I can understand the stumbling block that results in believing that God does all the work because man seems to want to see worth and value in who he himself is. Therefore, God choosing His elect, God doing all the work, and man not even capable of denying God, but rather works in a way that he must - well, these concepts for me anyway create a sort of struggle and a struggle to others.

Even the atheist seems to arrive at his or her conclusion because of a belief that life is unreasonable if there is a God and it is easier to conclude that there is no God and life is only what we see now. I was listening to an interview with Ravi Zacharias and he said the most common and prevalent question he gets is over the problem of evil, suffering and life operating in a seemingly random manner. And how is it a God could love me and yet allow others to suffer. I've always found this puzzling that people have simply come to the conclusion that life can only be for our good. On one hand I don't think people think this and that toil has merits, but not to the extremes of perhaps suffering.

Therefore, it seems to me that their is a conclusion that there is no God. Even in these other beliefs that theologians and monks have had, it appears this idea of reason that sweeps into the view of the Bible - that at first glance, in the reading of scripture it doesn't make sense that, for example, a command would be given by God and yet man would be incapable of adhering to that command. In addition, the exclusive notion of God only saving the elect, at times feels peculiar.

Much of life is based upon training and we are trained in thought by our surroundings - our parents, our churches and naturally some people can at times stare at this and wonder if the training has been valid. At times in my reading of the Bible, I'm looking at the words of the text and thinking about them to see if my conclusion lines up with the training in which I have received. Thus, when I examine these beliefs I want to understand them. Even this study, the writers have already concluded that they are heresies. Granted, others have concluded that in that past as well. I really want my beliefs to be based upon the Word of God and not the Words of Men. Yet, God speaks through men and gives them understanding into the things of God.

RC Sproul in the message titled A Divided Will looks at the Roman Catholic view toward original sin. Original Sin is defined as Adam sinning first and then his sin passed on to every other person after Adam; one person's sin made everyone a sinner. The Roman Catholic church condemned Pelagianism in the past and even today. What seems surprising is that at one time they upheld Augustine. Then they condemned semi-Pelagianism in 529, but then they also condemned Luther at the time of the Reformation in the 16th century. Thus, all of the options concerning the will and original sin seem to have been condemned. But the appearance is that they seem to mirror semi-Pelagianism which tries to say that grace and man choosing can go hand in hand.

In the Council of Trent from the 16th century, he (Sproul) looks at the Roman Catholic view of will and original sin. In Canon 4, there is some sort of condemnation toward the reformers. Rome has maintained that baptism cleanses the soul from original sin; grace is infused into the soul and thus grace is necessary for salvation, but the grace must meet with a response or cooperation with the person; at this point a person becomes inherently righteous. However, according to reformers, man is dead in sin and must be awakened by God through regeneration. The issue seems to be here as to whether there is cooperation with man or if the first step of grace is God doing the work. According to reformers, at this point, man is passive. God is not waiting for man to agree with Him. Man instead is quickened back to life. Thus, it is monergistic whereby God works through the Holy Spirit to bring about the salvation of the individual. But, according to the catechism man still has the power to choose good or evil. Reformers says that man does have the freedom to choose, but will only choose evil.

In his message titled Bondage of the Will, RC Sproul speaks of Martin Luther and sola fide "by faith alone" and this summarizes Luther's doctrine of justification by faith alone. Yet Luther felt that sola gratia "by grace alone" was an even more important subject as sola fide grows out of sola gratia. He thought that the study of election was at the heart of the church's mission in understanding. We are saved by grace and it has to then be by faith. Luther felt it was of pinnacle importance to understand whether our salvation is the work of God or work based upon our own merits, our own striving, our own efforts. Sproul talks about the debate between Erasmus and Luther over the issue of whether free will is even a subject that academics should study and debate. Erasmus felt conversely that it shouldn't be studied for he felt that to understand grace alone and faith alone would make man feel that his live of living had no value. To this Luther responds. Erasmus says "Who will respond to reform his life?" Luther - "Nobody." Erasmus - "Who will believe that God loves him?" Luther - "Nobody." And this is in a way Luther's point that no one seeks after God as it says here in Romans 3:11.

We don't want to come to the things of God, on our own. Our only hope is that God seeks us out and turns us around and brings us to Himself. How can one say that one person, on his own accord chooses grace while another person does not? There must be something between the action of the will and making the choice. The in between is inclination of the soul. Why are you a Christian and your neighbor isn't? And they'll say, "Well, I chose to be and they chose not to be." And I will say - Is it because you are more righteous than your neighbor? Most people will shrink from saying this. So why isn't it because you are more righteous? You made the right decision, didn't you? And yet this is what they really believe that they made the righteous choice. And then there is the subject of necessity. For Erasmus, necessity meant coercion and therefore felt like there was no free will. If my actions are necessary because of God's foreknowledge then they must take place through coercion - says Erasmus. Luther says - God does not force me to make decisions in my normal daily living, but they are necessary in respect to his knowledge, because if God knows today what I am going to do freely tomorrow, without His coercion, will I do that tomorrow? God's knowledge of it happening does not mean that God is forcing it to happen. God does not coerce sinners to sin. People choose what they want, but the problem is what they want is wicked. He does not force people who want only to do evil, to do good.

RC Sproul in the message title Voluntary Slaves, Sproul starts by clarifying that Calvin gets his understanding of election from Augustine and Luther. Following Luther's death, the Lutheran church was persuaded by a colleague Phillipp Melanchthon of Luther's who disagreed with some of Luther's philosophies, namely the one of whether individuals cooperated with their salvation. This is why the Lutheran church is in conflict with Calvin even today.

Calvin often gets the credit for the doctrine of free will and God's sovereignty because of his TULIP. T is for Total Depravity. This total depravity does not mean that a person is completely evil for even in thinking of a person that is evil, like Hitler, that person could be more evil than he was. Instead what this means is that as a result of the fall, sin affected the entire human race. And this fallenness affects the entire person - the mind, the heart, the the body, the will. Thus we are morally incapable. Calvin said we are still capable of making choices and he says we are still capable of achieving what he calls "civil" or "civic virtue." This means that on the level of human interaction, fallen man can do good things to and for each other. These are horizontal choices. What Calvin is getting at is whether man has any desire to good things vertically. On his own accord, vertically, will he choose the things of God?

Now what is most controversial by Calvin is the letter U which stands for Unconditional Election. What this means is God chooses man not based upon their actions because no one would respond positively to the gospel. As he said, man is fallen and therefore incapable of choosing horizontal devotion to God, apart from God giving them aid and drawing them to Himself. Jesus said that the flesh profits nothing. Apart from the work of the Holy Spirit in our lives to regenerate us we are incapable of choosing the things of God.

Our mind has been seriously affected by the Fall. But it has not been destroyed. The mind is still capable of achieving greatness. Some people have been bestowed on them a great intellect and work hard at learning and have in the process achieved much greatness on the earthly plane - horizontally, but in the matters of the vertical or in the matters of God the only way they can achieve the things of God is when the Spirit of God intercedes into their lives. I Corinthians 2:14 - The person without the Spirit does not accept the things that come from the Spirit of God but considers them foolishness, and cannot understand them because they are discerned only through the Spirit. No one ever of himself will be able to come to Christ. No one can. Jesus says that no one can come to Him unless it is given to him or unless the Father draws him. Arminian speaks of this drawing as God luring or assisting man in coming to him. Calvin though speaks of drawing as working internally in the heart and soul of a person and make them willing to come to him. If left to themselves they would not be willing. God does the work and they become willing. Apart from his work they would never come to him. He changes their disposition.

Summary - What I am seeing in this discourse is the tendency I think in some thinkers, like Pelagius and Erasmus is maybe not necessarily disputing the words of the Bible, but struggling in believing this is actually as it is. Feelings creep into our lives and we in turn struggle to believe that God really intended people to operate in a manner of Him doing the work in drawing man to Himself. I thought it was most compelling in this study to think about the vertical and horizontal. That we can make choices on the horizontal and even live seemingly good lives, do good things, and make good choices, but in the matter of the vertical, in the matter of God and desiring Him above else, this is our problem. And it is only God that can give us this type of desire for Him. We cannot do it on our own. Thus, as I have said before, we are trained in life to live in such a way horizontally and we naturally think this is how God works vertically. But He does not. There is no trade-off with Him of us doing good deeds and then receiving a reward in return. The reality is this is the way it works most of the time in our horizontal living and therefore we equate it with God. But scripture says differently and so we must submit to the Word of God, in its entirety. I think I've thought that maybe the Apostle Paul and Jesus and the rest of the Bible were somehow in conflict, but this is not so. Paul simply expands on principles of the rest of the book. This has been an enlightening message and I know it has taken me two months to complete, but it does seem like it has sunk into me now. Thus, where we reside today is the idea that people simply are not as fallen as scripture makes them out to be.

Promise: From Tabletalk - Understanding our fallenness, that we will not seek God without His effectual grace, enables us to worship Him more fervently as the source of every good and perfect gift.

Prayer: O Father, I thank you for the clarity of Your Word. Yes, it is hard work and it takes time to understand what it says. I thank you for this, that there is depth to You. Thank you for speaking through men like Sproul and weaving your message through history. Give me empathy towards people that do not share this knowledge. I pray for them that you would illuminate people and give them understanding. Keep me focus on this practice of prayer and not towards the practice of me seeking to change others. Thank you for salvation and allowing me to see the beauty of your grace and have it affect me for all eternity. Thank you Jesus for bearing the punishment of my sins, for bearing the punishment of all of our sins, thereby fulfilling the punishment of my sins so that I could be sealed in righteousness for eternity.

Note: I follow the readings from the Tabletalk Magazine devotional, though I am a little behind and working through 2017 devotionals. 2017 is a study of key biblical doctrines celebrating the 500th year of the Reformation. The month of April is about salvation by grace alone. March was about the sovereign providence of God; February was about the doctrine of revelation and the various aspects of the doctrine of Scripture that sola Scriptura seeks to preserve; January is about the doctrine of God.

My Utmost for His Highest - October 31 - Discernment of Faith

Faith as a grain of mustard seed. . . — Matthew 17:20

We have the idea that God rewards us for our faith, it may be so in the initial stages; but we do not earn anything by faith, faith brings us into right relationship with God and gives God His opportunity. God has frequently to knock the bottom board out of your experience if you are a saint in order to get you into contact with Himself. God wants you to understand that it is a life of faith, not a life of sentimental enjoyment of His blessings. Your earlier life of faith was narrow and intense, settled around a little sun-spot of experience that had as much of sense as of faith in it, full of light and sweetness; then God withdrew His conscious blessings in order to teach you to walk by faith. You are worth far more to Him now than you were in your days of conscious delight and thrilling testimony.

Faith by its very nature must be tried, and the real trial of faith is not that we find it difficult to trust God, but that God’s character has to be cleared in our own minds. Faith in its actual working out has to go through spells of unsyllabled isolation. Never confound the trial of faith with the ordinary discipline of life, much that we call the trial of faith is the inevitable result of being alive.Faith in the Bible is faith in God against everything that contradicts Him  – I will remain true to God’s character whatever He may do. “Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him” – this is the most sublime utterance of faith in the whole of the Bible.

My Utmost for His Highest - October 30 - Faith

Without faith it is impossible to please Him. —Hebrews 11:6

Faith in antagonism to common sense is fanaticism, and common sense in antagonism to faith is rationalism. The life of faith brings the two into a right relation. Common sense is not faith, and faith is not common sense; they stand in the relation of the natural and the spiritual; of impulse and inspiration. Nothing Jesus Christ ever said is common sense, it is revelation sense, and it reaches the shores where common sense fails. Faith must be tried before the reality of faith is actual. “We know that all things work together for good,” then no matter what happens, the alchemy of God’s providence transfigures the ideal faith into actual reality. Faith always works on the personal line, the whole purpose of God being to see that the ideal faith is made real in His children

For every detail of the commonsense life, there is a revelation fact of God whereby we can prove in practical experience what we believe God to be. Faith is a tremendously active principle which always puts Jesus Christ first — “Lord, Thou hast said so and so” (e.g., Matthew 6:33), “it looks mad, but I am going to venture on Thy word.” To turn head faith into a personal possession is a fight always, not sometimes. God brings us into circumstances in order to educate our faith, because the nature of faith is to make its object real. Until we know Jesus, God is a mere abstraction, we can not have faith in Him; but immediately we hear Jesus say — “He that hath seen Me hath seen the Father,” we have something that is real, and faith is boundless. Faith is the whole man rightly related to God by the power of the Spirit of Jesus Christ.

Tuesday, October 29, 2019

My Utmost for His Highest - October 29 - Substitution

He hath made Him to be sin for us,…that we might be made the righteousness of God.…2 Corinthians 5:21

The modern view of the death of Jesus is that He died for our sins out of sympathy. The New Testament view is that He bore our sin not by sympathy, but by identification. He was made to be sin. Our sins are removed because of the death of Jesus, and the explanation of His death is His obedience to His Father, not His sympathy with us. We are acceptable with God not because we have obeyed, or because we have promised to give up things, but because of the death of Christ, and in no other way. We say that Jesus Christ came to reveal the Fatherhood of God, the loving-kindness of God; the New Testament says He came to bear away the sin of the world (RV mg). The revelation of His Father is to those to whom He has been introduced as Saviour: Jesus Christ never spoke of Himself to the world as one Who revealed the Father, but as a stumbling block (see John 15:22-24). John 14:9 was spoken to His disciples.

That Christ died for me, therefore I go scot-free, is never taught in the New Testament. What is taught in the New Testament is that “He died for all” (not — He died my death), and that by identification with His death I can be freed from sin, and have imparted to me His very righteousness. The substitution taught in the New Testament is twofold: “He hath made Him to be sin for us, who knew no sin; that we might be made the righteousness of God in Him.” It is not Christ for me unless I am determined to have Christ formed in me.

My Thoughts
  • Did Jesus die for me? He died for all. He was made to take on sin and the result of this is I have been made righteous. If I focus on this fact, that Jesus died, and by me identifying with His death, I am freed. 

Monday, October 28, 2019

My Utmost for His Highest - October 28 - Justification by Faith

For if, when we were enemies, we were reconciled to God by the death of His Son, much more, being reconciled, we shall be saved by His life. —Roman 5:10

I am not saved by believing; I realize I am saved by believing. It is not repentance that saves me; repentance is the sign that I realize what God has done in Christ Jesus. The danger is to put the emphasis on the effect instead of on the cause — “It is my obedience that puts me right with God, my consecration.” Never! I am put right with God because prior to all, Christ died. When I turn to God and by belief accept what God reveals I can accept, instantly the stupendous Atonement of Jesus Christ rushes me into a right relationship with God, and by the supernatural miracle of God’s grace I stand justified, not because I am sorry for my sin, not because I have repented, but because of what Jesus has done. The spirit of God brings it with a breaking, all-over light, and I know, though I do not know how, that I am saved.

The salvation of God does not stand on human logic, it stands on the sacrificial Death of Jesus. We can be born again because of the Atonement of Our Lord. Sinful men and women can be changed into new creatures, not by their repentance or their belief, but by the marvelous work of God in Christ Jesus which is prior to all experience. The impregnable safety of justification and sanctification is God Himself. We have not to work out these things ourselves; they have been worked out by the Atonement: The supernatural becomes natural by the miracle of God; there is the realization of what Jesus Christ has already done — “It is finished.”

Sunday, October 27, 2019

My Utmost for His Highest - October 27 - The Method of Missions

Go ye therefore, and teach [disciple] all nations. —Matthew 28:19

Jesus Christ did not say — “Go and save souls” (the salvation of souls is the supernatural work of God), but — “Go and teach,” i.e., disciple, “all nations,” and you cannot make disciples unless you are a disciple yourself. When the disciples came back from their first mission, they were filled with joy because the devils were subject to them, and Jesus said — “Don’t rejoice in successful service; the great secret of joy is that you are rightly related to Me.” The great essential of the missionary is that he remains true to the call of God, and realizes that his one purpose is to disciple men and women to Jesus. There is a passion for souls that does not spring from God, but from the desire to make converts to our point of view.

The challenge to the missionary does not come on the line that people are difficult to get saved, that backsliders are difficult to reclaim, that there is a “wadge” of callous indifference; but along the line of his own personal relationship to Jesus Christ. “Believe ye that I am able to do this?” Our Lord puts that question steadily, it faces us in every individual case we meet. The one great challenge is — Do I know my risen Lord? Do I know the power of His indwelling Spirit? Am I wise enough in God’s sight, and foolish enough according to the world, to bank on what Jesus Christ has said; or am I abandoning the great supernatural position, which is the only call for a missionary, viz., boundless confidence in Christ Jesus? If I take up any other method, I depart altogether from the methods laid down by Our Lord — “All power is given unto Me…Go ye therefore.”

My Thoughts
  • This statement mesmerizes me, perhaps that it is spoken - There is a passion for souls that does not spring from God, but from the desire to make converts to our point of view. - That the goal too often I think is we are selfish first in making converts, but this does not mean the converts are not truly converts.  
  • Is discipleship the same as missions? 

Saturday, October 26, 2019

My Utmost for His Highest - October 26 - What is a Missionary?

As My Father hath sent Me, even so send I you. —John 20:21

A missionary is one sent by Jesus Christ as He was sent by God. The great dominant note is not the needs of men, but the command of Jesus. The source of our inspiration in work for God is behind, not before. The tendency to-day is to put the inspiration ahead, to sweep everything in front of us and bring it all out to our conception of success. In the New Testament the inspiration is put behind us, the Lord Jesus. The ideal is to be true to Him, to carry out His enterprises.

Personal attachment to the Lord Jesus and His point of view is the one thing that must not be overlooked. In missionary enterprise the great danger is that God’s call is effaced by the needs of the people until human sympathy absolutely overwhelms the meaning of being sent by Jesus. The needs are so enormous, the conditions so perplexing, that every power of mind falters and fails. We forget that the one great reason underneath all missionary enterprise is not first the elevation of the people, nor the education of the people, nor their needs; but first and foremost the command of Jesus Christ — “Go ye therefore, and teach all nations.”

When looking back on the lives of men and women of God the tendency is to say — “What wonderfully astute wisdom they had! How perfectly they understood all God wanted!” The astute mind behind is the Mind of God, not human wisdom at all. We give credit to human wisdom when we should give credit to the Divine guidance of God through childlike people who were foolish enough to trust God’s wisdom and the supernatural equipment of God.

My Thoughts
  • Chambers continues to help me embrace the idea that "to God be the Glory", not man. We give humans too much credit. 

Friday, October 25, 2019

My Utmost for His Highest - October 25 - The External Crush of Things

I am made all things to all men, that I might by all means save some.1 Corinthians 9:22

A Christian worker has to learn how to be God’s noble man or woman amid a crowd of ignoble things. Never make this plea — “If only I were somewhere else!” All God’s men are ordinary men made extraordinary by the matter He has given them. Unless we have the right matter in our minds intellectually and in our hearts affectionately, we will be hustled out of usefulness to God. We are not workers for God by choice. Many people deliberately choose to be workers, but they have no matter in them of God’s almighty grace, no matter of His mighty word. Paul’s whole heart and mind and soul were taken up with the great matter of what Jesus Christ came to do, he never lost sight of that one thing. We have to face ourselves with the one central fact — Jesus Christ, and Him crucified.

“I have chosen you.” Keep that note of greatness in your creed. It is not that you have got God, but that He has got you. Here, in this College, God is at work, bending, breaking, molding, doing just as He chooses. Why He is doing it, we do not know; He is doing it for one purpose only — that He may be able to say, “This is My man, My woman.” We have to be in God’s hand so that He can plant men on the Rock as He has planted us.

Never choose to be a worker, but when God has put His call on you, woe be to you if you turn to the right hand or to the left. He will do with you what He never did with you before the call came; He will do with you what He is not doing with other people. Let Him have His way.

My thoughts
  • ignoble - not honorable in character or purpose
  • God chose me